B-Movie Monster
As I mentioned before, I was born with the disability Cerebral Palsy. My family has always been supportive of me, and thanks to their positivity I have spent most of my life feeling very capable overall. Still, there are times when I get insecure— or, in spite of a wonderful hip replacement, when the physical pain wears on me. I have multiple issues with my lower extremities (these days it’s my right ankle that needs surgery.) Sometimes the sadness finds its way into the cracks in my positive attitude. This song is an attempt to crawl inside those feelings and express them. It helps to temporarily purge them, and to take back some sense of control, to own my disability as opposed to allowing it to own me.
And, I want to write honest music. My favorite songs are often the ones where the artist puts themselves out there, and I feel the need to do that too. I like the analogy of being one of those monsters from an old 50’s B horror movie, like the Wolfman, Dracula or the Mummy. But in particular, Frankenstein. It’s about the feeling of not fitting in, feeling awkward, noticing people staring, and in my case, given the 11 major surgeries on my legs, the feeling like you were created in a lab, with scalpels and stitches. Ultimately though, the song is about defining yourself not by your limitations, but by your character and capabilities.
As I mentioned before, I was born with the disability Cerebral Palsy. My family has always been supportive of me, and thanks to their positivity I have spent most of my life feeling very capable overall. Still, there are times when I get insecure— or, in spite of a wonderful hip replacement, when the physical pain wears on me. I have multiple issues with my lower extremities (these days it’s my right ankle that needs surgery.) Sometimes the sadness finds its way into the cracks in my positive attitude. This song is an attempt to crawl inside those feelings and express them. It helps to temporarily purge them, and to take back some sense of control, to own my disability as opposed to allowing it to own me.
And, I want to write honest music. My favorite songs are often the ones where the artist puts themselves out there, and I feel the need to do that too. I like the analogy of being one of those monsters from an old 50’s B horror movie, like the Wolfman, Dracula or the Mummy. But in particular, Frankenstein. It’s about the feeling of not fitting in, feeling awkward, noticing people staring, and in my case, given the 11 major surgeries on my legs, the feeling like you were created in a lab, with scalpels and stitches. Ultimately though, the song is about defining yourself not by your limitations, but by your character and capabilities.
As I mentioned before, I was born with the disability Cerebral Palsy. My family has always been supportive of me, and thanks to their positivity I have spent most of my life feeling very capable overall. Still, there are times when I get insecure— or, in spite of a wonderful hip replacement, when the physical pain wears on me. I have multiple issues with my lower extremities (these days it’s my right ankle that needs surgery.) Sometimes the sadness finds its way into the cracks in my positive attitude. This song is an attempt to crawl inside those feelings and express them. It helps to temporarily purge them, and to take back some sense of control, to own my disability as opposed to allowing it to own me.
And, I want to write honest music. My favorite songs are often the ones where the artist puts themselves out there, and I feel the need to do that too. I like the analogy of being one of those monsters from an old 50’s B horror movie, like the Wolfman, Dracula or the Mummy. But in particular, Frankenstein. It’s about the feeling of not fitting in, feeling awkward, noticing people staring, and in my case, given the 11 major surgeries on my legs, the feeling like you were created in a lab, with scalpels and stitches. Ultimately though, the song is about defining yourself not by your limitations, but by your character and capabilities.