Kick Myself
In March of 2020, I was on the verge of an independent record deal: the agreement was 5 albums over 3 years, a great studio to record in, and a producer that I loved working with. There was no contract yet, it was all just a handshake and conversations. Then, Covid-19 hit hard, and things went into lockdown. Overnight, everything changed. I watched the deal evaporate in front of my eyes. I spiraled into a depression for months, and if I’m being completely honest, I drank way too much. I had a little studio in my house but I wasn’t using it. I didn’t play guitar much. I couldn’t go back to teaching guitar without putting the household at risk, so I was basically spinning my wheels a lot. I still listened to music a lot during that period, and it helped me cope. Ultimately, I came out of that experience with a much stronger sense of who I am, why I do music—it’s about reaching people. It’s about sharing my experiences in the hope that the music I write can lift you up, get you through hard times. Now that you’re here, let me say thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. As I write this, I don’t know who you are. But I hope we meet someday, and I hope you can relay a story about yourself, and what gave you hope during a dark time in your life.
In March of 2020, I was on the verge of an independent record deal: the agreement was 5 albums over 3 years, a great studio to record in, and a producer that I loved working with. There was no contract yet, it was all just a handshake and conversations. Then, Covid-19 hit hard, and things went into lockdown. Overnight, everything changed. I watched the deal evaporate in front of my eyes. I spiraled into a depression for months, and if I’m being completely honest, I drank way too much. I had a little studio in my house but I wasn’t using it. I didn’t play guitar much. I couldn’t go back to teaching guitar without putting the household at risk, so I was basically spinning my wheels a lot. I still listened to music a lot during that period, and it helped me cope. Ultimately, I came out of that experience with a much stronger sense of who I am, why I do music—it’s about reaching people. It’s about sharing my experiences in the hope that the music I write can lift you up, get you through hard times. Now that you’re here, let me say thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. As I write this, I don’t know who you are. But I hope we meet someday, and I hope you can relay a story about yourself, and what gave you hope during a dark time in your life.
In March of 2020, I was on the verge of an independent record deal: the agreement was 5 albums over 3 years, a great studio to record in, and a producer that I loved working with. There was no contract yet, it was all just a handshake and conversations. Then, Covid-19 hit hard, and things went into lockdown. Overnight, everything changed. I watched the deal evaporate in front of my eyes. I spiraled into a depression for months, and if I’m being completely honest, I drank way too much. I had a little studio in my house but I wasn’t using it. I didn’t play guitar much. I couldn’t go back to teaching guitar without putting the household at risk, so I was basically spinning my wheels a lot. I still listened to music a lot during that period, and it helped me cope. Ultimately, I came out of that experience with a much stronger sense of who I am, why I do music—it’s about reaching people. It’s about sharing my experiences in the hope that the music I write can lift you up, get you through hard times. Now that you’re here, let me say thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. As I write this, I don’t know who you are. But I hope we meet someday, and I hope you can relay a story about yourself, and what gave you hope during a dark time in your life.